Of The Boyfriend

You've all been waiting for it and I'm sorry I took so long. It was insensitive of me.

So my life consists of basically one person right now and you all know who he is. If we're not together we're talking on the phone. If we're not on the phone we're on Skype. If we're not on Skype we're together and so the cycle continues. Knowing who I've been in the past, you'd probably expect me to bitch and moan about how much time dude and I are spending together, but I'm not. I sincerely enjoy spending time with him to the point where if we're not communicating I'm wondering what he is doing at that time. I don't know how I feel about him (severe like or love) or what's going to happen when we're all out of the Brook, but I want to enjoy the time we have. This sounds so sappy, but I hate when people count down the days until we all leave because it just reminds me I have to leave him.

Gee wiz.

But my relationship with him has a had some negative results. Let's count the ways:
1. My family pretty much hates me...inculding my brother. I kind of betrayed his trust yesturday so he's not speaking to me. My dad is jealous that I have another man in my life who takes care of me.
2. I've been neglecting you guys. I'm sorry for that.
3. I'm dreading leaving for Vassar.
4. I've become dependent on someone else for happiness.

Despite all this, I don't see myself breaking up with him...I don't know. We'll see how it all goes.